56th Grammy Awards

Yeah. What a show! So shame it started at the time I have to sleep. Well, here in Indonesia. All the performances is EPIC. (I didn't watch the show, but I watch the performances on youtube, I'll wait until the encore!) And Macklemore and Ryan Lewis ft Mary Lambert and Madonna's performance simply brought tears into my eyes. Same love. And Taylor's All Too Well is way beyond perfect! Oh how I adore her. Here I'll post Tay's vid and several other epic performance, like Sara Bareilles and Carole King's Beautiful and Brave.

Anybody watch the whole award? Or you'll just wait the encore like me? Tell me please.
Me

Nana's Home!!

Yeay!! Finally, Nana can sit and today she moved in to our house. There'll be a nurse to watch her like a hawk for 24 hours. And she gets a really cool bed which is too awesome. I'm really glad, but I have to think how they move Nana to the car and out of it. That thing cost a lot of energy.

She has a wheelchair, medicines, balls (for therapy), and everything. I'll just hope she'll be fine and turn out like usual. Please pray for her.

And, hey the real Rayz out there. Why didn't you bbm? I'm kinda emotional right now *tears streaming down*

Me

Tryout and The Grammys

Yes. You see the title? There'll be another 3 tryout after a 3 days of dreaded tryout. And it'll be in a SAME DAY. This is a long hard week, I haven't have any rest except sleeping until noon. I guess I'll pass out when the tryout is done...

But the good news is.. Grammys is on the board!! Yeay, and Taylor nominated! She ask people in her instagram and twitter : Today at rehearsals for grammys. I'm trying to remember.. What was the song a lot you were saying you wanted me to perform on the #Grammys?    
I vote for Trecherous, but people begged her for All too well. Well, I don't mind because that song is insanely perfect. And in her pic in instagram, she's playing piano in the rehearsals, and I think she cut her hair a little bit, which is awesome. So Swifties out there, say whats song do you want! And it's 2 days again, a.k.a Monday, so.. Rush it!

Yeah. I think I'm not going to pass out. I'll just watch the grammys. I hope you too.

I hope your week is better than mine :)
Me

Tryout..

It's been a while.

Y'all already know I'm insane, crazy, nuts and whatever it is, right? Well now, I'm crazier, insaner (I doesn't even know if it's a word..) and nutser (this too). Indonesian 6th Grader out there, do you feel the same? After the damn try out? Yeah. Mind blowing.

I am studying so hard until my brain begged me to stop. I sleep after midnight, I do the MATH homeworks, I have to finish the speech my Bahasa teacher gave me, I have to REMEMBER AND READTHE FREAKING ENGLISH SPEECH in front of EVERYBODY. I have like some kind of phobia of public speaking so I'm totally freaked out and totally mad at my teacher. How could she kill me like this...

Anywho, I study my brains off and I still get 7.8 in my BAHASA INDONESIA TRY OUT. I was like "Seriously, dude?! I never got 7 in Bahasa IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!".. Gh, I just hope I got at least 7.5 at Math and 9, 10 if that's possible, in Science. And it seems my body starting to reject how I should work because my stomach is killing me for this past... 4 hours or something and I'm glad it ended.

Yo 6th grader out there, are you freaking out like me? Are your brain is tired? Let me know because I've been killing myself wondering "Is there any psycho like me out there?"

Hope you have a good rest of the day,
Me

So God Bless This Rain

Yep. The water flooded into my house. I think this whole Jakarta and houses in this city is full of water, last night. 2 o'clock and the water suddenly barge into our house. Apparently, what gave me a heart attack is people in this whole block and other blocks rang a dang bell three times that warn people about the nasty water. It's kinda scary. The water has reached the pavements and people move their cars to the mosque. I was pretty messed up last night. You even can use my room as a pool. Waters everywhere. Disaster.

It's like what happened last year. In the exact January. The climax of the rain season. I kept saying "God bless this rain." over and over again. Can't think why my brother didn't even move a muscle when my mom scream in the top of her lungs "THE WATER CAME IN!!". And so, last night, I slept with a water splash as the music.

Any people who's reading this have a same experience like me? And oh, You, I really sad you just read my text and didn't answer it. I hope your house is still safe and dry.

So God bless this rain.
Me

Rain

You know what time is it now? It's 6 hours before dawn, and the rain is still pouring. Did you enjoy it? Did you enjoy the beauty, rhythm of rain? How they hit this earth and makes a perfect sound that simply tickles my ear and heart. The most beautiful thing in this world. Isn't it a dream come true when you sleep while the rain is pouring?

Jakarta is now in a storm. This rain might scare most people in this city. And this rain might causes tears in some people. But God knows what's best for His people. So don't say you're not lucky when you see the gray sky above. Know that you are lucky. You hate rain, but you need this thing. How can plants grow when there's no water? And how can you breathe with a nice air if there's no plants? I know that's not a good point and cliche. But just know that you're lucky you still can hear those beautiful pound in your ceiling. Look at some country around the world who will beg for rain. You'll see the bright side. You will. Everyone will.

Smile.
Me

Curlssss~

Yep. I open my headband and I got a big curly hair. Almost like Carrie Bradshaw's curl, only mine's not all curled. It's kinda like I've permed my hair (not sure if that's the correct spelling). Courtney's (the real name of Spreadsunshine15, just discovered) hair is straighter than mine, so she get a curling iron ish curl. And I get like 90's or even 80's, 70's curl. But it's still cool.

I don't wanna show up my pic here in my blog because maybe there's boys in my school who read this now. But, you can imagine how it looks like. Just imagine Carry Bradshaw's hair, but black and the upper section is not curled. Imagine it? Okay.

I hope this help somebody who wants a heatless curls :)
Me

Dark and Wet and Cold Friday

This day suppose to be happy and I suppose to ask him why he didn't text me yesterday. But, my Mom wake me up at 8 this morning when she wants to say goodbye and go to the hospital and I freaked out. I was like "Mooomm!!! WHAT TIME IS IT?!!" and she just answers "8." Then I ask again, totally freaked out, "WHY I'M NOT AT SCHOOL?!" And then she answers again "The school is cancelled. The water flooded all the way in to your school, your teachers have already spread the words so you have nothing to worry about not getting ready to school." I was going to cry but.. "Oh, okay.."

Well, I did hear the rain like at 4 o'clock and, I did know the rain is hard. Oh well, I still sad though..

So here I am, or maybe other people in Jakarta or maybe You who were reading this, sitting in front of computer, wearing cardigans and got my hair all curled, in the dark and wet and cold Friday.

T.G.i.F everybody,
Me

Hairstyling and Stuff

Teenage girls or even the girls in my age already love to do make up (with da foundation and everything) and hair styling, and so does I. Lately I've been surfing on YouTube about hairstyling and makeup, and I found this channel : spreadinsunshine15 and she've help me a lot. Like when I have to blow dry my hair for school, or when I just want to make curls, or even when I just wanna learn about makeup (just learning because I'm 11 and I don't have any make up thingies, except powder and lip balm.). And I think this girl help me a lot, even when I don't really know who the hell her name is. But, I'm gonna talk about a few tutorials that spreadinsunshine made.

There's this thing I really love when you curl your hair with a straightener. It's kinda cool you know, it's called straightener but you can use it as a curling iron. But honestly, I've destroyed my hair by trying this, making curls with straightener is way better than using a curling iron. You'll get a nicer curls.

But because I don't have any Protectors, my hair almost ruined right now. And for girls like me (beginners) who usually doesn't have any protectors, or hair sprays and things like that. But, I usually do heatless curling, which take almost overnight, but keeping your hair soft like usual, and the best thing in this technique is you don't need anything but a headband. I only have one headband which is not all rubber and elastic, because it have this section where it's not the rubber but like fancy vintage fabric. But I really recommend to use all rubber because it's better. And, you only have to twist and tuck your hair, go to sleep and open it in the morning. Oh yeah, do this with a wet hair. Wait until like 20 minutes until you do this. I'm doing it myself right now just for information #nobodywantstoknow

And she made this video where she talks about makeup for beginners and the wow thing is she have a bag full of brush and mountains of cool make ups like : Naked, and Maybeline, because her family is so rich (her house tour taught me that). And this thing might help girls who want to go to office, school, college, or everyday in summer. And this might help me in the future.

I'm so addicted with these tutorials, so if you guys wanna try it out, subscribe her or like her in her YouTube channel :) (promotion :p. Neh, kidding). And maybe I'll have my own hair and make up.

I hope it help you,
Me

Dear People..

Dear people,

Now, I'm praying so hard. Let me tell the story..

Grandma. Yeah.. It's happening again. She's stroke. Pembuluh darah pecah di otak tengah (kira kira begitu) pecah, sekarang kalo ga salah darah kayak ngumpul di otaknya. Sebelah kiri udah.. kinda can't move, a.k.a lumpuh. Last year, I lost my other Grandma. The one who's so close to me. This one is cancer, big one and pretty rare. Now, it's a stroke. Can't believe it, just out of the blue.

I really hope you would spend like only 10 seconds to pray for her. Please. I have lost one, I don't want to lose another one. My mom's so down right now, so do I. I know this is nothing for you guys, but for me, this means the world...

Pray,
Me

Dear God..

Dear God,

You've taken me one of my grandma, and I'm begging You.. Please don't take another one. Please heal her. Please save her. I'm begging You. She keeps me warm, she's my grandma. And I don't wanna lose her. I don't wanna lose anyone again. Please, please, please.. I just wanna be a good granddaughter, I want a second chance. Please make sure she'll be okay.

Please..

Yours truly,
Me

Lil Sist

I always wanted a sister, just so I could really talk to a girl in my house. And you have a sister, little one. And today (or maybe not), she's getting older, right? I know I don't know her, and she doesn't know me.

Dear this lucky young lady,

You have a very rare and nice brother you got there. Please make sure he will always be fine, healthy and happy. And since I know him like the back of my hand, and I act like he's my brother too, I think we'll be real close if we meet one day. Happy birthday. Happy birthday. Happy birthday.

Wishing you all the best.

Your not-really-real sister,
Frey

I'm Only Me When I'm With You

Friday night beneath the stars, in the field behind your yard. You and I are painting pictures in the sky. And sometimes we don't say a thing, just listen to the cricket sing. Everything I need is right here by my side. 

And I know everything about you, I don't want to live without you.

I'm only up when you're not down, don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground. It's like no matter what I do. Well, you drives me crazy half the time, the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true. And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town boy and girl, living in a crazy world. Trying to figure out what is and isn't true. And I don't try to hide my tears, the secrets, or my deepest fears. Through it all nobody gets me like you do. 

And you know everything about me, you say you don't want to live without me.

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself, and only you can tell.

I'm only up when you're not down, don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground. It's like no matter what I do. Well, you drives me crazy half the time, the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true. And I'm only me when I'm with you.

And I'm only me who I wanna be and I'm only me when I'm with you, with you.

-Taylor Swift-

In Memoriam

In Memoriam, My Best Friend's Daddy.

Died 1 January 2014, 17.00.

Stay strong for the losing family, I'm so sorry.

Rest In Peace,
Me

New Year

Still counting down..

5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1..

12.00

Yeah, Happy New Year, people! I already miss my magical 2013. And if you don’t want your New Year Night ruined my babbling and chattering, you better go. And if you’re staying... You’re my man.. :D

Now, really, I don’t want to be all sad losing 2013. I also wanna be happy for 2014. Hey you, welcome to the world, 2014. You better be nice to me. Give me a good year. Yet I’m still sad to see 2013 just gone.

For my bro, the Fireworks still on, my parents are watching Love Actually and I’m all alone in my room. And I’m missing you. Thank you for making my 2013 magical. You are one of the most special reason why 2013 is magical. I never thought I would love someone that I used to hate. So much. And, your biggest crime record is stoling my heart. Thank you for 2013. And I love you. And I miss you so much. Happy New Year, bro. The one with a perfect smile and shining eyes. The one who always makes me laugh and smile. Happy New Year! (Sorry if I always mention Happy New Year)

For my Beth Girls! Oh my gooddd, I’m soo missing our gossip and our laugh! And I really miss The Little Miss Athifah’s cough. Happy New Year my girls, hoping when we have our own daughters, they will be as crazy as us. Can’t forget the day when the boys bought us the Pasco and planning to make a Beth. Can’t forget the idea of Beth, too! And, I hope we don’t end up like sk, tff, and blah blah blah. Forget the past and move on.

And my enemy, please please be a better girl this year. You see, the boy doesn’t like you anymore. You better screw off.

And for my beloved readers wherever you are, thank you for believing in my weirdness. Thank you for reading all my crazy posts. Thank you and I’m sorry if some post might hurt your feelings. I will never be a normal girl, which means I will be an Insane girl forever, but I will try the best to be a good and better girl.

And I said ‘Oh my, what a marvelous tune.’ It was the best night never would forget how we moved. The whole place was dressed to the nines, and we were dancing, dancing, dancing like we were made of starlight, starlight. Like we were made of starlight, starlight, starlight. Like starlight, starlight, starlight.. Don’t you dreaming of impossible things, don’t your dreaming of starlight?

Happy New Year, Bye – bye 2013, Welcome 2014,

Me