Memories

Today I'm feeling anxious, yet excited.. And mixed with happy and sad. A lot of emotions today, I'm emotional, I know. It's 2 days until me and my friends for 6 freaking years (well some of them is only 2 years) will go to separate directions. I don't know if I will see them in complete condition ever again. I'm trying to spent this last day I'm one class with them and honestly, I felt like nothing is going to happen. Like I'm going to go to this class, with these peoples, and study more maths the next morning and the next forever. And now thinking of that feeling, I kinda want to cry :D

To you, who will went to Junior High, are you feeling the same? Are you? Are you?

I mean, I do don't want to let them go, let those memories go, because.. Seriously, I grew up with this people. They watch me grow and I watch them grow. That's insane. But it all felt so fast, felt like today you're in your first day in this school and then the next day you're in the edge of your last year in this school. Looking at this place, my second home, memories comes flashing into my mind.

 I remember exactly, 3 years ago when the girls made a secret message on the boys' board game. I remember exactly, 2 years ago, I liked this boy who's now my totall enemy. I remember exactly 2 years ago, I made a friend group named SK and we fight in the next year. I remember exactly, almost 2 year ago, I liked this boy (who's currently I like too) and I know there's no chance that he will like me back because he liked my enemy, and I remember back then, I used to sing You Belong With Me everyday wishing a miracle will happen. I remember exactly, a year ago, a boy came to me and say that he liked me in front of the class 5A and 5B and we made 11 months long story of us. I remember exactly, a few months ago, half of the girls hated me, but half of the 6th grade is wacthing my back and ready to cure me if I'm wounded. I remember eactly, a few months ago, the hallway of the third floor saw me ran, and fall and crying just because he said he hates me. and I remember this one, wonderful, year laughing, fighting, screaming, having fun, studying with 30 other kids. I could never ever forget about them. Because I remember exactly, how they always made my day.

And I sure as hell i will remember Daffa with his #signatureOz and will annoy me every single day of my life. He just couldn't stop making me hate him, but I will miss his jerkness anyway. And ooh! I sure will remember my besties, and people who was my bestie. There's a lot, but I'm going to type them anyway. I'm sorry if you're bored reading this post. I just can't help it. Fildzah (for 5 years of friendship), Zahra, Tiwi, Lili, and Fannesa, bayu (was my boy bestie). Remembering all those dramas and fights xD

But I do have many embarrassment in this school though. Like today, I asked a friend of mine if he remembers last year when I show my diary to him and I accuse him that he told my enemy about my diary. But he kept giving me extremely confused look and I kept trying to remind him of that story. And in the end he said "What? No, I do.. not rememberr.." Well, I just stood there like a dope. Instant embarrasment, do not feel good, 100% don't reccomend doing that.

But, there's lots lots of memories of them. Too sad to leave them. Don't you just feel the same? Everytime you'll leave a Elementary School that maybe you've spent 6 years growing on that one building? I am a very dramatic person and plus, I love these people. For me, it's hard to leave people I love. Don't you agree with me? Agree with me.

Maybe I will never moved on from those memories, but hey, there's still a hope.

Bye