Dear Rayz

Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you. Counting my foot steps, praying the floor won't fall through again. And my mother accused me of losing my mind but I swore, I was fine.. You paint me a blue sky, then go back and turn it to grey. And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules everyday. I'm wondering which version of you I might get on the phone. Tonight, well, I stopped picking up and this letter is to let you know why. 

Dear Rayz, I see it all now that you're gone. Don't you think I was too young to be messed with? The girl in the dress cried the whole way home.. I should've known..

Well, maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame. Or maybe it's you and your sick need, to give love then take it away. And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors, that don't understand. And I'll look back and regret, how I ignored when they said,

"Run as fast as you can."

Dear Rayz, I see it all now it was wrong. Don't you think eleven is too young to be played by your dark twisted game, when I loved you so..? I should've known..

You're an expert at sorry, and keeping lines blurry. Never impressed by me acing your tests. All the girls you've run dry, have tired, life-less eyes, because you burned them out. But I took your matches, before fire could catch me, so don't look now. I'm shining like fireworks over your sad, empty town.

Dear Rayz, I see it all now that you're gone. Don't you think I was too young to be messed with? The girl in the dress cried the whole way home..

I see it all now that you're gone. Don't you think I was too young to be messed with? The girl in the dress wrote you a letter. You should've known, you should've known...

You should've known,

Me