Goodbye

It's been a while.

April starts tomorrow, and for reminiscing March, all I can say is : March is a wet month. I cried a lot, I do mistakes a lot, I hurt people a lot, and I did make my mom cry.

I earned my first broken heart from my first love this month, I cried a lot for that. But, I wake up and I found someone new. Someone I know would put my heart back to normal, and someone I know would never hurt me even if I hurt him. He will constantly making me laugh, and I know he doesn't try to do that. He never try. He just did. And I don't need chocolate to prove that. And that's what I get from 212521 and Sunday. 2 boys that have making me stronger and 2 boys that have given me a lesson that believe me, I wouldn't forget for the rest of my life.

I earn my biggest fight with my parents this month. And that's all is my fault. I am selfish, I am careless, I am mean, I am a devil and a demon. I am a pain for everyone. And for my whole life, I never actually have try to fix myself. I kept running around making scar in my family's heart and especially in my mom's heart. I am not a girl who have a big ego, and I never been able to tell what I feel. But deep in my heart, I am sorry. I'm sorry, Mom. I really do. And I know I didn't say it. But I'm sorry.

I earn strenghth from my best friends this month. I feel the strugle of my friend, how she survive from the death of her beloved one, and how she's in pain in her own house. I feel the unloved feeling from my other friend, how they tell me about their parents. I realised I'm lucky, I'm lucky, lucky, lucky. I have a loving parents, God smiles on my little brother, inside and out he's better than I am. My friends are not as lucky as I am, but they're not like me. They're thankful, they're nice, and all I do is try to be like them.

And last but not least, I earn new resolution. I swear I'll be a better girl. I swear I will try. Am I sound like someone's dying? But, yeah. I cried a lot, but I earned lessons this month. So, March is actually a pretty deep month.

And you, earn a goodbye from me. As a punishement for my serious attitude I've done, my parents took my netbook and my radio. So, no internet and music for me for a month if I behave. It's a hell for me, but I earned it. It's my fault. So, I won't write any posts and on on disqus nor YouTube for at least 1 month. It's for the good, isn't it?

Don't look for me.
May the odds be ever in your favor
Goodbye,
Frey